Ostentatious

Having started reading Mark Manson’s books, the first thing I can relate to is the illusion most of us is living under. The ways our thinking works and how we show it to outside world. The art of not facing the real truth but being comfortable with our basic selves is humanly and an easy think to do in this modern world. Instead of expressing our true feelings and thoughts, why not buy an expensive piece of garment and talk about that. Going out and talking about how our social media is doing, where I got that lipstick colour and how difficult was it to find. Filling in the silences by looking at the phones whilst subtly giving a stinky eye to someone across the room, feeling good about ourselves thinking how we have other important things to do. Its the image of what our mind wants us to show to the world whilst keeping our true selves locked in. Its safe thing to do right, not exposing the vulnerabilities, not risking it at all. After all, great names has told us to keep our emotions in check, why wouldn’t we? Constantly trying to impress others and feeling comfort in knowing what other think of us. Being in our illusion bubble and changing colours as we are seen. Not that its wrong, but its the comfort and not facing it all. With time,we will move farther away to face that “real truth” and until its so far away, we wouldn’t even know what it was all for. “Be in present and enjoy it” I wonder how different poeple would interpret that. Next big question that pops in the mind is “do we ever yearn”, ask ourselves this question the true meaning of yearn and how we perceive it. What is it we want and when was the last time we really and deeply thought about it. How it has change our lives and how miserable or happy it made us. Reflecting on how far you have come and really think about our choices and thinking patterns. Are we that modern that we can’t even think it?

Unloading

“I can’t wait to get back to work so I don’t have thoughts like that” says her, after having the conversation about meaning or purpose of life. She is off sick for last 14 days and have no other passions. Instagramming motivational quotes or posting pictures of girls night out, and I am thinking why do we want to show other people the perfect being. Why she is seeking approval of others and looking for someone to make her feel better?

The purpose of life is one’s true inner calling, what makes them get up in morning. Seeing the real side of people is disappointing. Claiming one thing and doing the opposite irks me. Why do we want to be seen as good people and act like bad? I would rather be seen as bad person and act like good. Maybe the villains are the real heroes, atleast they are not hiding their true selves. What hurt the most is being not genuine. It breaks the heart and can really have long lasting effect. Villains are bad images but they are not deceiving anyone.

Pandemic

How a pandemic can change the whole world, nobody predicted that, it’s something that came out of blue. Nobody was prepared for it. The most important aspect of it is panic and fear. Panic indulge the individuals to do silly things. It spreads like anything. The feeling of insecurity and unpredictability gets to almost everyone. Not knowing things scare us the most.

Reflexes

People tend to do things that matter to them, they often think of things as objects which they can control so they feel powered. how that thinking works has something to do with their evolution and with their thinking. how humans responds to situations does tell us about something. it is at sub conscious level, its the impulse, the reflexes which have matured over time,moulded over a period of time by constant improvisation and reflexes about certain thing. but its the control of those nerves those reflexes that really differentiates between the two.

Feelings

That feeling of spark when we meet our special one, the feeling after ages and so much wait, is a special one. Spark is worth the wait, worth the misery. Wait actually intensifies that feel. In the end it’s all worth it. Nothing goes to waste. everything has a role to play. Diversity of emotions is what makes that moment so very powerful.